Jim's Story....

Complains...

Complains....
Complains....
Complains............
That's what I had been doing for the pass few months. Especially towards the place where I studied. To the mentality in the place, the equipment in the place and everything that you can name it, I think I had already complained about it. So now here's the problem, is it my problem that I complained too much or is it the place's condition is too bad until I need to complain about it whenever I had the chance to do so.

My partner had been telling me to look at the bright side. Yes, I did try to look at the bright side, I'm a very optimistic person just to let you know that, yet I just can't find any good thing to say about it. Except, oh yes except, the friends that I met there. Those friends who money can't buy them. Only those I really got no complains about.

Come back to the story why I had complained that much. Is it that I had compared with other place that make this place look bad? Or is it just my perception or myself who is not appreciating the opportunity that other Chinese is yearning to get it? Oh yes, a lot of people praise this place like it's no other place in the world. That it's the top place in Malaysia, it's the best, it's hard to get in ( on this I think if you're "their" people then it an impossible thing that you couldn't enter, unless "they're" that really bad), or just they don't get much exposure like the others who opt for either private or oversea?

This is what I had recently thought about, can exposure change the way we perceive and think the environment about us? Or just that we're keeping the complains to ourself thinking that we couldn't do much about it since it's not our place anyway. Perhaps that's the reason why we're Malaysian are being treated like this, since we're just keeping the complains and always thought that we can't anyway make any difference about it, or we just too lazy to give damn about it?

In the end, I think that we deserve better. For the amount of taxes that we paid, (if anyone can think of one thing that wasn't being taxed please do let me know), we really deserve way better than this. We just didn't fully utilize the money we'd paid for taxes, but then situations changes when we were being serve in restaurants or retail store, we always want the best services from the restaurant and retail store for the amount we paid for them is not small. When it comes to taxes, the situation is 180 degrees changes. 

Anyway it's just my ramblings and complain to the system that we're living in. You may just say that what can I do? Since I'm just another normal fella living under the same system like you and me.What I can tell you is that, the only thing I can do is to expose you more the dark side of the system, for I always believe that awareness can do a lot.

Troubled.....

Finally after doing this for nearly half a year then I realized how hard it is...
it's sort of wearing me out day by day...without me knowing that...
without time for myself to reflect at times....
To be honest, it's really really hard to put, to commit yourself in so many things in one time, without time for yourself.
Even you asked for those precious time for yourself, you'll soon find out that it's impossible to do that, you'll need to pay a price for it.
Friends are getting further away from you....lost......
Really missed those time spending with my brothers. No worries, no commitment, the feeling of being free.......
No one to help me, and yet the things to do are piling up by the minutes.
Problems and worries piling up by the minutes...
I wonder will this kill me or not, indirectly or directly, I think I'll know later in my life...
Just hope one day all this problems and worries will fade away.......
Waiting for that day to come.....

Revived.......

I guess who will be reading this will know that the title served this blog well right?
It's been nearly a year since i last typed in to this blog and all i blog was all my freaking messed up and fuck up emotion.
But....it'll all be changed, since i dont know why tonight i'm so wired, (maybe due to the caffeine that i took during i work, who cares), so i decided to blog about what i noticed recently...(depending on how you interpret "recently" because what i'm going to blog might happened long time ago, anyway...)
So what i noticed, it's that our malaysia drivers are just so "clever" i would say...for example, our infamous turn without signalling, our infamous queue cutting driver, our infamous slow driver on a fast lane, our infamous rich ass who drive a damn nice car but drive like a lorry driver ( and lorry driver even drive better than them, seriously!!!) oh one more, our infamous driver who will somehow manage to get into your lane while turning into a corner in a highway...... man i see alot of this kind of drivers on the road, what's wrong with them i wonder? are they just pure dont know how to drive or just they droved like this since they got their license?? (Now we need to question our beloved JPJ who "minum" alot of kopi from the "money" he get from i dont know where?...from the sky maybe? you'll "never" know)
i also cant get it, how can someone can be darn rich, ( i will assume that he get rich because he use his brain and will perhaps have some manners in his life to get so rich) can drive like a lorry driver, exp queue cutting, cutting lanes without signalling, driving like his grandpa's road...and the list go on.... even a poor bastard like me in a myvi can drive better and behave better than him( i can really prove it though, ask my friend how i drive)....2020? i dont think so, with our people mind still stuck in 1957??? ( I think it's way more earlier than 1957 )...........................................

I know my english sucks, but live with it if you're reading this...............

Time To Reflect....

So fast it's been nearly half a year i'm back in KL.
It's been quite sometime that i didnt blog because i myself really dont know what to blog and really do amazed by the people who can blog everyday with things to write with.
Anyway, One semester had past so fast that i didnt notice it past until it happened.
Alot of things happen during this semester, things that are sad, things that are happy, things that add more colours to my life, things that had change my course of life, things that happen and had a great impact on my life, seeing people happily joined together then break up all of a sudden, friends argueing with each other, things that changed the way i look at some people, things that changed the way i think.
In the end, of all the things happen it really does grow me up, making me stronger emotionally and mentally, change the way i deal with things and people.
Wow.. think about it, i'm not that naive like past semester. Things really look clearer to me after what'd happen during this semester.
Thank God for all of this and i think that this things happens do have it's reasons, but anyway what happen do had happen, will just learn from those mistakes i made.
By the way, sorry for those people who i dont know how but can make them angry me for dont know what reason....
anyway this is the end of my crap..
another semester gone waiting another semester to come...
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Lifes Goes On For Me............................................:)

wat the hell happen...

Recently my uni had an election of the student council. Firstly, i totally think that this is nonsense and useless since all those candidate said during campaign is totally crap and rubbish, eventhough after they got elected what they said is totally forgotten and they totally didnt do like what they said in their campaign which i dont know why they promised us in the first place.

Ok ok, that's ok for me, let them said all they one since this is a "freedom" of speech country right people? here comes the announcing of the result after the vote, so in the end all those pro governments won all the seats, that's good for them because no opposition group is taking the seats from them and good because they can sit there do nothing just like a usual politics, big mouth big body but no action, nobody oppose their opinion thus our UM always looks that old and very old.

Ok ok, it's ok for me since UM got improve or not improve our engineering faculty still like an old man who's goin to die any moment. Suddenly, their's this commotion from the law faculty that suddenly those pro-government candidate won with extra votes,( i have no idea how the hell they knew that fella won with extra vote), so they reappeal and counted the votes, in the end, the fella actually got a few extra vote from some ghost who votes and then the votes suddenly appear during the counting of the votes, cool huh.. can you imagine how many those candidate who won got those "ghost" votes...what the....speechless...i wonder how our country will go on if such person who did this will take control of our country........crap.....

What Goes Around, Comes Around!!!

Hey girl, is he everything you wanted in a man?
You know I gave you the world
You had me in the palm of your hand
So why your love went away I just can't seem to understand
Thought it was me and you babe
Me and you until the end
But I guess I was wrong Don't want to think about it
Don't want to talk about it I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
ust so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it I just can't do without ya
Tell me is this fair?
Is this the way it's really going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around
That you were gonna make me cry
It's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find...

What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around

Now girl, I remember everything that you claimed
You said that you were moving on now
And maybe I should do the same
Funny thing about that is
I was ready to give you my name
Thought it was me and you, babe
And now, it's all just a shame
And I guess I was wrong

Let me paint this picture for you, baby

You spend your nights alone
And he never comes home
And every time you call him
All you get's a busy tone
I heard you found out
That he's doing to you
What you did to me
Ain't that the way it goes

You cheated girl
My heart bleeds girl
So it goes without saying that you left me feeling hurt
Just a classic case
A scenario
Tale as old as time
Girl you got what you deserved

And now you want somebody
To cure the lonely nights
You wish you had somebody
That could come and make it right

But girl I ain't somebody with a lot of sympathy
You'll see

What Goes Around.../...Comes Around Interlude By Justin Timberlake

I recently listen to this song and found out the lyrics is a good source to ponder about. This is just part of the lyrics because the rest is all repeating.
Hope you guys will get the meaning out of this song, and make sure you dont do the wrong thing to anyone because what goes around come around to you one day.

Xcapade!!!

just came back from the Xcapade camp from AIESEC, thank god for giving me this oportunity to go this camp. Learned alot and get to know alot of friends from it.
It rocks haha.. althought it's sometimes is tired and boring but then learned alot of things from it.
Now i'm back to my normal life in my house now, need to study for my next week's mid term test, darn.
ciao people..
one more thing, Extreme Behaviour by HInder and Future Sex/ Love Sound by Justin Timberlake rocks,
try to listen it you'll like it.

It's meant to be...

today all of a sudden something hit my head. i suddenly realize that everything happen to me, those bad sad stuff, those happy stuff , everything...that it happens with a reason behind it. After so long something i wish to happen actually better if it's doesnt happen, dont know why this thing suddenly hit my mind though but think of it, it's really better dont happen or continue cause the outcome is not good for me though, funny, so now i'm trying to accept it with a new way of thinking though, hope i can get through it with this.

So people out there, everything happen because it happens and it happened with a reason behind it which by means sooner or later you'll know the reason why it happened to you whether it's a bad thing or a happy thing. God really does works in mysterious ways does he?? ...... Thank God for giving me such good lessons.

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you know what, everytime i do listen and hear alot of people saying that they'll appreciate this and everything, but what i want to know is that whether they're really really appreciating what other people had did to them before. For all this time, i really dont know how much people really actually had appreciated for what i did and my helps, but i dont mind at all as long as i do my part to help them sincerely. Just that want to tell everyone that do appreciate, and i mean really appreciate what other had done to you, because the people who helped you sincerely without wishing anything from return are the one who you shouldnt be at all hurt them or in return give them a terrible time.

Do appreciate what you had at the moment because you'll never know what will happen in the next few minutes in your life. Never complain, treat friend as if they're the last person you'll going to know, treat your lovers like you'll never meet them tomorrow and keep your promises to them, think before you make any promises before you hurt someone deep, appreciate that everyday given to you by God is not free and make full use of your life. Thanks for reading my crap.

Tired...

Tired tired tired...this is words i can think about at the moment. Been a very busy week with assignment, lab report, and meeting old friends. Yesterday, went to my highschool's friend's reunion, so nice to meet them cause it's been like years i didnt meet some of them. So, it's very nice to catch up with them since most of them came to KL to study. Some become fatter like me, some getting better at making themself look nice, people do change.

Anyway, yesterday i met one of my friend who freaked me out last week by writing something very funny in her blog saying that she's goin to marry soon and need a job desperately. After i read that i called her straight to find out whether it's true or not because she's those girls who wont marry so early in this age. Then, i found out actually it's just a prank by her to check out whether her friends care her or not, (=_=lll).....

So at Friday night, went out with my old friend to Wangsa to drink tea, later around at 3 something in the morning bring my friend from Seremban go to jalan jalan in KL. Somehow somewhere we're in the KL's birdpark which in taman tasik perdana something, forget the name. Damn it's nice inside with the streetlights there, and inside there the road all connected to the Musium, masjid negara, etc. haha found a new place to go in KL..

Anyway, still misses her, dont know why, shouldnt be happening, imagine her with me, how stupid i am..............